Curve balls

So much has been going on this week. And its only a WEDNESDAY!

I'm not quite sure what type of mood I am...maybe tired and a bit emotional.

I feel like going to work every day is literally getting ready for a battle. Maybe its the profession I decided to choose or maybe it has to do with my boss. I have been fucking things up at work...making stupid careless mistakes. Which I accept and have apologized for doing so. However, I am a human being, and people should take in account my learning curve. On Monday my boss was ridiculous. I had to update, export and format excel spreadsheets along with programs as well. Sounds easy and quick right? Well- WRONG! I was at the office till 10 PM on a MONDAY night! My first day back from the weekend. No worries- my boss left me high and dry at 6. I came back to my desk and she had put on her jacket and was walking towards the door. She gave me a list of things to do. I guess it is true that when you are the lowest on the totem pole you really have it hard. That's one thing I wish college taught me. How the real world is nothing like internships/summer jobs at all. I thought I had seen it all with my internships but NOPE. This is a damn roller coaster..and I'm learning. Today college graduates have the twinkle and hopeful look in their eyes...I just want to pull them aside and say GO BACK TO SCHOOL!! The real world is not fun at all in fact it sucks. You know when you first graduate from college you think to yourself I can do whatever I want to do and be whatever I want to be. You don't really think much of obstacles nor the people you come across. I have to admit from where I was freshly college graduate to where I am now (4 months later) I have learned and experienced a lot.

This past Saturday I went for a run in Central Park and came across this cute little old man. He was holding a cane, book and a bottle of water. I approached him and asked if he would like some company. He was delighted! We walked and talked for a while...well I did most of the talking! He has asthma and couldn't talk as much while walking. But so nice and he complimented on my kindness. I didn't do it because of the compliment. I did it because I wanted to talk to someone and maybe meet a friend. Nonetheless, he invited me to his reading at a church on Monday evening. I wasn't able to make it because I was stuck at work! Woo. The life I live right??

Oh match.com- Hahahahah god where do I even begin? Well, I think Mark officially hates me...not quite sure why. But we haven't spoken since Monday (I know two days ago..) but the balls in his court. I'm not going to make anymore effort even though I did on Monday. Ya know? Erik is so nice! He has been so patient with me since I've been so busy with work and all but I'm hoping to see him soon! Sean? Well, we've been texting back and forth so we are supposedly hanging out this weekend. I won't hold my breath. Thats it for the guy department now.

So curveballs. I guess when life and things happen unexpectedly you just have to deal. I sometimes hate my life/job but I have to deal. Theres no better way to say that. It sucks. But I'm a grown up.